Transparent Lives

This last week was one of those weeks when God teaches us something that we have been refusing to learn because of pride or embarrassment or whatever. For the past few months God has been tugging on my heart and I have been pulling away as hard as I could. Now when you really think about this there is no way that I could ever win but as usual that didn't stop me from trying to pull away from God. Last Monday night I was sitting in Summit Chapel and Dave Ward was talking about being transparent and having people in our lives to lean on when things get rough. My heart just sank. God had been trying to tell me that I have been hiding but I didn't want to see it. I felt comfortable with my life. In the end I finally said OK God you want my heart you can have it. Let me tell you, that is the most awesome release of emotion that you can ever experience. I am still very confused as to what God wants out of me, but when he tells me I will jump as fast as I can!

When Dave talked about having sticks that we can lean on, the first thing that came into my mind was that because I was hiding my friends that I have don't have any idea that I need them. At that moment I felt God say to me, "don't worry I am with you and I am with your friends." I knew then I had to be transparent with a few of my friends and create relationships that will keep me in line with the will of God!

I first want to thank all of the people who have supported me this last week and that are going to support me this upcoming year. Second I want to say that when God moves nothing can stand in his way and if we are smart we won't even try.